Well everyone, it's officially that time of quarantine. I’m going through my snapchat memories, camera roll, and old photos, missing all of my friends. One of my friends posted about 100 snapchat memories on their private story about how much they miss school. And I'm not gonna lie, I'm right there with her. I miss school, my friends, and even the awkward run-ins with the scary upperclassmen in my clubs and sports teams. It was definitely one of the most stress inducing parts of being a freshman at school, but something I will never get back.
I’m just going to be honest with you, I miss normal. That’s right, I miss normal. And the funniest part is that I didn’t even know I had a “normal” until it was taken away from me. I felt like I was moving way too fast back before this all started. I would run from one class to another, and try the hardest I could to keep up. As soon as school ended I would rush to my after school activity to the next, barley coming up for air. But that was my normal. As stressful as this may have been for me, I loved it. I thrived off of the fast paced life and high-staked activities.
But now a new “normal” is watching 1 season All American in 4 days. Four. Actual. Days. It has gotten unhealthy at this point. I can’t stop binge watching. I may be addicted at this point. But in all honesty, I’m watching season 2 episode 1 right now. By the time you’re reading this, I may actually be on season 3. Luckily for my brain cells and sanity, season 3 isn’t on Netflix yet. But watch out, another show is next and you already know i’m already going to be wasting my time watching that show too.
The point of all of this though is that I hate my new normal. The normal of watching a season of Netflix in four short days and doing homework on my computer all day long. It sucks. And I’m not going to sugarcoat it. Because I know it sucks for all of us. No matter how many times I am told to find the bright side of the situation, this negative “never-ending-quarantine” side of me finds a way to sneak back in. We are told to stay positive, but we can’t be expected to be perfect. That side of us may sneak back in, but that is natural. That’s what I've learned to accept. Some days it is harder to stay optimistic. Today is one of those days. So if you are having the same issue as me, just know we are in it together.
As we see the Coronavirus numbers continue to rise, each day gets scarier and scarier. I’m scared. Not for me, not for my family, but for our world. Overcoming this seems like an impossible task. How do we get past this, knowing it has changed our lives forever? I’m scared to cough in front of people because I don’t want them to think I have Covid-19. But now I'm learning to adjust. That is what we do. We overcome. And we will overcome this together.
Lauren :)